Cycle Day 9: Everyone's Pregnant

At a committee meeting today a member revealed that she's pregnant and due mid-July. My SIL is due around then too. I was supposed to be due at the end of July. In my mind this was the pregnancy that just had to work, because the timing was perfect. We would have had a baby for our 6th anniversary. So July 2013 due dates are hard for me right now. I wish all expectant moms the best, but it's difficult to feel excited for anyone who isn't me.

Cycle Day 2: This Again

I've been expecting this. Almost 2 weeks ago I had excruciating pain on my left side. I believe that was the egg attempting to travel down a blocked fallopian tube. I am so not looking forward to my HSG next cycle. Shooting dye through blocked tubes cannot be pleasant. Also, last week I was absolutely ravenous. That's usually a sign.
More snow over the weekend. We're supposed to get another couple inches today. It hasn't started yet, but I'm sure it's just a matter of time. Between snow and monster cramps, I'm planning on packing up some work and taking it home with me. Even with cramps, I'm sure I'll be able to focus more while snuggled in bed wearing my pajamas.

Weather Rollercoaster

Last week it was so cold schools were cancelled. This week we've experienced highs in the mid-60s. WTF, weather? But fear not tomorrow we could get snow again. Here's a picture of my 13 year old dog hanging out this past Saturday enjoying last Friday's snow. That's right. Last week was Frigid (with a capital F). Then it warmed a bit and snowed all day Friday. And then this week we experienced 60 degree weather and the tomorrow it could snow. Fantastic.

maggie enjoying some snow

People Who Can Have Children - Updated 1/24/2012

These people can all have children. I cannot.

Boy, 10, died of THIRST after his parents refused him water for five days 'as punishment for wetting the bed' - Dallas, TX; An emergency room doctor testified that the boy went into cardiac arrest, had multiple organs failure, blood poisoning and muscle breakdown as a result of being deprived of water.

Steubenville: Couple admits putting kids in plastic boxes - Couple used plastic storage containers sealed with duct tape to punish their 3 children (ages 5-8). Don't worry they did cut an air hole for them.

Guernsey County Man Kills 5-Year-Old Son, Self - murder-suicide involving 5 yr old

Cleveland: Police investigate possible abuse of 18-month-old - Unexplained bruises on toddler's face, ear, and leg. Child taken from 21 year old mother and placed in custody of paternal grandparents.

Vermilion: Parents, grandmother of dead infant behind bars - toddler starved to death, other children in home malnourished

Investigators: Lancaster Man Had Meth-Making Materials, Kids At Home - 30 year old man with 2 young kids at home (ages 2 & 4). Police were called by neighbors because of suspected drug activity in the house.

Ohio Woman Facing 5th Drunken Driving Charge - 32 year old mother caught drunken driving with her 8 year old son and a bottle of rum in the car.

Mom Charged after Thrown Baby Dies - 25 year old mother threw her 6 month old baby against a hard surface. He suffered skull fractures and brain damage and died at the hospital.

Parents Indicted In Connection With 2-Year-Old’s Scalding Death - I don't blame them at all for the scalding death. That was a tragic tragic accident. However, no one involved realized he needed major help. I'm not as upset about this family. They're more on the fringes of my anger at the universe.

Saturday's Elliptical Mix

I meant to finish this post sooner, but don't really have much to say. Yesterday I started getting sick. Sore throat, general aches, intense pain in my left side . . . With the side pain I wonder if it's ovulation related? Maybe an egg attempting to travel down a blocked tube? We'll see when my cycle starts and how things look with the HSG.

Losing My Religion - R.E.M.
Seven Nation Army - The White Stripes
Better Off Dead - Bad Religion
Kiss My Lips - Borgore and Dev
Shiny Happy People - R.E.M.
Papa Won't Leave You, Henry - Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds
No Evidence - SpaceGhostPurrp

Bring on the Booze

This morning's b-hcg was less than 1, so no more restrictions. Welcome back to my life booze, sex, ibuprofen, multi-vitamins . . . . So now I just wait for my period. Then I wait for another period. Then I'll get my HSG. Huzzah!

The Plan

1. Another beta on Friday to make sure I'm below 5.
2. HSG on my second cycle (still haven't started one--last week was a false alarm).
3. Continue to lose weight! (This morning I was 157 lbs).

We went for a 4 mile walk at a park on Saturday. Since it was warm it was crowded. Crazy crowded. Since I haven't done anything since then my muscles are tensing up with each day that passes. I'm feeling it most in my glutes.